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I'm sick every 3 weeks because our kitchen is so big I never remember to drink my respiratory tea... also, I can't quit smoking 2 things. I'm bothered that I have no nose hairs.
It's raining and its the end of Thanksgiving weekend. I'm waiting to go home which I really want to do because I really like my boyfriend and I miss my home and I need to know when I work tomorrow.
There is nothing new in my life and that might be why I don't answer the phone or call anyone. Also, I talk to people all goddamn day and when I'm not at work I tend to not really want to... unless you're my friend and it's in person.
umm... I haven't done anything with my college degree. I work at a shitty restaurant tourists and rednecks love but part of me is just happy to have a job since there are so many struggling to make money right now.
The economy was horrible when I got out of college so there wasn't much for me.
Yay excuses!

I rearranged my room and I feel great about it. I usually don't do this.. I usually move before the urge hits. But I got a new TV and things had to be done. It's a nice change... I was thinking how many hours I spent finishing college those last two months on the bed or on the floor in the old room and have decided it's the new era room arrangement. yeah, I'm real lame.
Here are some pictures...
Besides work and hanging with the bf ( this about sums it up... )
oh yeah and my elbow feels broken. summerusmmersummeriehriheith

Fucking adorable!!
And on the subject of taking steps in a relationship... I'm about to leave for Charlotte to meet this guy I'm smitten with's parents.. and he'll meet my sister. Woohoo. but Russian Stacking Doll proposal will hopefully be long in the future... yet, if he pulled out hand painted stacking doll rendition's of the two of us and our non-existent pets... I might consider.

I had a weekend to bring me back to life.
Tom Waits did what I knew he could do and put on maybe the best show I've ever seen. The Fox Theater is beautiful, he played Hoist That Rag, Innocent When You Dream, On a Nickel... many many many...
Fell totally inlove with Beluga Whales at the Georgia Aquarium.. I hear you can swim with them for a pretty penny...one day I will pay that pretty penny.
The Aquarium was pretty sweet. Still unsure if it's worth $26 but since the Charleston one is close to 20.. It definitely wins... I just don't know about the weird mall food court set up.. it actually reminded me exactly of London's Heathrow airport... which I remember thinking was extremely futuristic-mall-food-court-esque. But the cluster fucked white walled food court of the Aquarium smelled strongly of fried food and sang out everything on par with, and including, "Proud to be an American"... Heathrow played techno and I don't remember what it smelled like, maybe potatos and bad breath...
Ate home cooked Bengali curry at Javed's parents house with the whole lot of 15 of us from different south eastern corners... and then spent the 5 hour car ride home playing delerious, ingenious, perverted, and extremely creative madlibs... Second and Fourth adjectives totally my opions of course, but "Where Brendan Frasier's wife keeps her penis" is the best specific location, "biker's finger necklace" is a great noun... and "Zaxby'sish" is a fantastic adjective.
Besides my sweet needed vacation, I adore this guy in my life more and more everyday and I've got my first tomatoes and peppers growing!
I'm not proofreading or editing, fuckyallz,loveyou!
Here's a forwarded email from my mom called "Interesting Nonsense"

1.. Scientists say the higher your I.Q. the more you dream.

2.. The largest cell in the human body is the female egg.

3.. The smallest is the male sperm.

4.. You use 200 muscles to take one step.

5.. The average woman is 5 inches shorter than the average man.

6.. Your big toes have two bones each while the rest have three.

7.. A pair of human feet contain 250,000 sweat glands.

8.. A full bladder is roughly the size of a soft ball.

9.. The acid in your stomach is strong enough to dissolve razor blades.

10.. The human brain cell can hold 5 times as much information as the
Encyclopedia Britannic.

11.. It takes the food seven seconds to get from your mouth to your
stomach.

12.. The average human dream lasts 2-3 seconds.

13.. Men without hair on their chests are more likely to get cirrhosis
of the liver than men with hair.

14.. At the moment of conception, you spent about half an hour as a
single cell.

15.. There is about one trillion bacteria on each of your feet.

16.. Your body gives off enough heat in 30 minutes to bring half a
gallon of water to a boil.

17.. The enamel in your teeth is the hardest substance in your body.

18.. Your teeth start developing (in your gums)6 months before you are
born.

19.. When you are looking at someone you love, your pupils dilate, they
do the same when you are looking at someone you hate.

20.. Blondes have more hair than dark-haired people.

21.. Your thumb is the same length as your nose.

22.. At this very moment I know full well you are putting this last fact
to the test ..

my summers go awesome, okay, awesome, okay, awesome, okay... this is an okay summer. but i like it a lot.
i'm just tired and hating the hours and the job and thats about it.
besides that, things are good.
getting worried i'm digging myself in some hole i'll one day wake up screaming in. need to think about everything more/less.

In response to my "I can't believe Tim Russert died!" e-mail...
'
I watched meet the press sun morning, Tom Brokaw led a discussion with lots of famous journalists and politicos - Maitlin and Carville for 2, it was very touching, Tim Russert was very loved. God took him with about the least suffering we could hope for when we die.
Don't work too hard,
Love and miss you much
Mommy
'

My mom was always concerned about my amount of leisure time. She believes in plenty of it. There is a definite conflicting parenting style between her and my dad.

She's okay with me giving away 3 of my shifts this week and laying around the pool.

I just got orchestra section Tom Waits tickets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(and other good news)
Happy Birthday Savannah!

I just set my alarm for 6:30am. How many times have I done this in my life? Not many.
I'm walking around my house in my white graduation dress with a face mask on, cleaning surfaces that only get clean when all of your family comes to town. It's 12:40am.
I think graduation will be fun. I tend to have a good time around a bunch of people who you will never see again that you share some weird celebratory common bond with. Like going to a good show but even better. It's my last (perhaps. pretty much?) school kid assembly and I will make it a good time. Plus, I've already made friends with the mimosa girl in Psychology section A-G. I have to pick up Simply Orange in the morning. The good stuff, we're getting serious.
Family and friends converging at my house in the afternoon, then dinner at Pane e Vino at 6, and then after party at parents suite at Double Tree. Woop Woop. I'm going to be exhausted. I'm sure it will be hours until I fall asleep.
Babble babble ramble ramble. Graduation!
I need go sew a pocket on the inside of my dress to stash a few cigarettes, my cell phone?, and maybe a bat and some dope.. .I'm scared about the last part though, although I hear it's do-able.

so it's officially summer. Eventhough the pool and the ocean are too cold, the sun is brutal and school is out.
On a break from work. Just fraternizing with people now and finding out about Mustard Seed position is conflicting. We will see.
I graduate college this weekend? Be at school by 7:30am and sit for hours and hours and then celebrate for hours and hours with a lot of family. College graduations (and my sisters wedding) are the only times when both dad and stepdad/mom have to hang out a while together. We're getting good at it, but my brother's was weird.
Transition phase begin!

I'm busy but bored as fuck.
That's pretty much it.
We went swimming all drunk the other night in our not-so-inviting-in-the day-light-and-sober pool. I guess that kicks things off. Being such a badass at being drunk and chicken fighting, I apparently knocked out Tess's fake tooth and now she's looking pretty awesome.
I am still schooling. It is the longest last 2 weeks of school of my life of my life.
I'm so goddamn bored with just about everything... except the BBC show "You are what you eat"... it's the only thing I get excited about these days.

inundated but handling it. 8 more intense days.
breathing. cant wait to buy some plants, put pictures up, and not think about breathing. not think about many things. hopefully.
i miss friends.

college ends soon!
I'm on ambien!
Every hour of every day for the next 2 weeks is scheduled.
I'll see you the evening of April 30 for some SERIOUS relief
May 10 for some SERIOUS celebration
May 17 for more serious celebration because Savannah is coming!!!!!
The gym is open until midnight and the library never closes.
I'm excited about the summer, for when our pool functions and my room is decorated.
I can't believe I'm about to finish fucking college...........

Quick recap:
I finish college in less than 3 weeks.
My sister just got married. It was perfect and they’re in Antigua right now. Added to repertoire: "have been a maid of honor".
I said goodbye to a very incredible person and friend, Kacie New... I don’t tend to put words to this.
I moved to my seventh house in Charleston. This time off the peninsula and onto James Island. I like the trees and plants, the almost pool, insulation, carpet, built in shelving, neighborhood, and my room above the garage (until it’s summer and I sweat to death).
I’m working at Sticky Fingers downtown again. Back after a year and a half (there for 4 years with some breaks before that). It’s fine, I like the people I work with and it’s quick money. I think at the end of the summer I will definitely have the motivation to start my journey into what people talk about being "the real world" or "grown up jobs". Or start to make decisions about that at least. Maybe go to more goddamn school...
There you go, my current answer to the inevitable question ("So, do you know what you’re going to do? (or the even more presumptuous "So what are you going to do? Do you have a job lined up?")) that follows "I’m graduating in May!" (the current answer to "so what are you doing?")
So that’s my life... going on (exhaustively) as always, and in this life (and in logical celebration/conclusion to my tiring, I mean enlightening?, 4 1/2 year stab at a somewhat decent education), I want to go on a tropical vacation as soon as possible.
I’ll be cramming my semesters worth of senioritis procrastination into these last 2 weeks, so I need to go ahead and put this out there now:
Who wants to go to Costa Rica? And if that’s too impossible: Puerto Rico?
I don’t have the time in the next two weeks to rally the information or money... but I think I should take the time to amp some of you up/milk you for information.

Tell me what you know about Costa Rica/Puerto Rico.
Tell me if you want to go. (July-ish).

I hope you’re doing really well and making good decisions and taking care of yourselves and all that.
Tru!

Love, Jeanine

P.S. SUMMER OH OCHO OOOHHHH

*If anyone reads the British newspaper The Guardian, online, and has an opinion about their media performance, in particular, their reporting of the U.S. (and perhaps if you've been analyzing or cross comparing it with the New York Times)....... YOU WOULD RULE MY LIFE. even if you want to make it up... I've got a major paper I'm behind on. The comment button is SO close!

On that note, what is going on?
Well, I've got about 3 weeks left of college. Maybe school forever... but I'm pretending that there is a possibility of motivation for more in the future.
And in these last 3 weeks I'm cramming a semester's worth of work in.
Also, my sister is getting married this weekend(!!!!!!!!).
Also, I am trying to plan my graduation.
I have a paper due Tuesday morning (the above mentioned). A paper due Wednesday. Both require work in the past I have not done... work I cannot make up. (School perhaps, like maybe most of work, is 75% a test of how good of a bull shit artist you are.) A major test Friday (major because of a class I'm essentially failing because of a previous major test I missed for funeral travels).
I have to pick up my dress... hopefully it fits... I have to find shoes (have a size 9 heel that matches a chocolate brown satin floor length? Also seeking a fancy shawl or jacket to match said gown) I also still have to decide on and purchase a fucking present for my sister and her soon-to-be-husband...for their goddamn union. I have to plan a speech. I have to somehow make it to Asheville by 4pm on Friday even though I have the aforementioned major test at 1pm on Friday. I have 10 'pieces' in a sketchbook that needs about 150 and I am no artist. Sitting down and giving patience to creativity and production is not a habit of mine.
I am graduating so early in the morning I have to reschedule the day... how best to space out partying... this means changing reservations and planning an in between pool party...also, major RAGER after plenty of food and drinks at nice restaurant with family. My parents haven't sent out any announcements and I have to get on their asses for that, or do it myself, because my sad poor hands are unashamedly stretched out for any old pockets who might be proud of me... or feeling philanthropic.
I'm thinking of all of these things, and so much more! at 4am this morning.
Double Duh.

(Radiohead classical cover people (acoustics and choirs) being great people at the Sottille Wednesday night at 8pm is something really awesome I'm doing. You should too if you live in Charleston... tickets are 5$ and are at 52.5, Boomers or what used to be Blue Bicycle Books, and Kudu coffee... I went to the first more rudimentary performance and it was absolutely smilecurdlyblood inducing)

Baltimore was as good as it could be. It was major girl bonding time with a lot of laughing and crying (and getting lost (in Quantico)). I have sister friends that will never go away.
I've been working and that's all good and well...
I go to a wedding this weekend in Hilton Head which will surely include a horrendous amount of drunken debauchery.
Next weekend my sister gets married.
I am surely going to get sick.
I'm working on buying summer dresses... City Trends blessed me with some stupid big sunglasses and purse on the cheap.
Sara cut a good portion of my hair off and I'm feeling lighter.
Yoga is making every part of my body hurt.
I've been scraping weird foam off of our pool- it will be upwards of a month until it's ready to swim in!
I can't wait until Savannah comes to town.
How about the Tibetan protests? Pretty exciting. How about those San Fran protests? You didn't hear? Probably not. Thank you Savannah.
That's all.

I worked all hours of this weekend and kicked ass making most people's rent. It's all going to a black hole bank account, old exorbitant heating bill, and traveling to Baltimore for Kacie's memorial.
I'm traveling/in Baltimore Tuesday-Thursday. Professors can suck it... although I've written very courteous and pathetic e-mails to all of them just now.
My room is still not decorated but I'm okay with it. That will be another time. When I can pretend the storm has passed for a while and I'll relish in the fact that I have time and energy to decorate my living space.
Went to the beach at night for the first time in forever and didn't regret it one bit.

I got another one of those terrible phone calls. The 4th in 5 short years informing me my world is suddenly without another irreplaceable friend.
peace out kacie, you wonderful genius mad woman I was fortunate enough to know.... you knew life was a joke... you were so goddamn good at laughing at it, too.
the shit storm is relentless and I'm done believing in any kind of balance .

humble

long weekend maybe i'll talk about it later
spring break 08

I moved "off of the peninsula".
I always imagined I would do that when I graduated college... James Island is where cofc graduates go to die/get high...
The perks are:
carpet in my bedroom!!
2 living rooms!!!
Built in shelving!!!
Plentiful electrical outlets!!
Central heat!!
INSULATION!
(beer pong/wood working) garage!!!
The best lit breakfast nook you could dream up.
GIGANTIC backyard with the nicest 6 foot fence surrounding it!!
Soon to have a giant trampoline!
The stars at night are big and bright!
Free little red Webber grill!!
did I mention: AN IN-GROUND SWIMMING POOL.
This summer is going to be, colloquially, OFF THE motherfuckin CHAIN
My sister's bachelorette and bridal shower are this weekend. With a house full of disorganized shit, no money, and little, superficially, in common with my sister- it's a little stressful. But I'm still looking forward to it.
I could have a free condo in Hilton Head ALL week long but I have to come back to work and finish organizing my house and then see Man Man on Friday! holler...
Spring Break feels like it's already over unfortunately.
Anyway, I haven't been sleeping at all. Really... the insomnia is worse than ever as now, I can not only NOT fall asleep, I can't stay asleep. Although exhausted, drunk, and high - I slept from 8am-10am.
I've been thinking and dreaming a lot about Tomo ever since I couldn't stop staring at this girl at the Smog show that looked like him/his sister.

I'm working now (sticky fingers again. what am I thinking? that I need money and a boost of self confidence- those people looove me and it feels good to do something you definitely know how to do), volunteering (i need to learn to discipline children. Brisha, a 4th grade dorky black girl is teaching me so much already; I hope I can do something for her), moving to james island (don't know how or when I'm going to physically be able to do that), finishing school (very strange and sad as I've just now learned how to get the most out of an educational institution), being part of a club for the first time ever in my life (being a secretary, taking the best minutes ever, baking for bake sales and fundraising), and maid of honoring it up (sister's bachelorette and bridal shower the very Saturday when we can enter into our new home and have to leave this one)...
so maybe i'll see or talk to you before I'm dead from being all responsible.